Mini Suicide (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} omgzimabroxxx) wrote,@ 2009-07-16 23:41:00 |
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Today was an icky day for denise. Hopefully everything gets better. I still hate chuck.
Day twenty eight:
It's good to see family. Regardless of the past history it just feels awesome now. It was a house full of boys again. Mason was so fucking sunburnt his back looked like he was wearing a red shirt hahaha but we all got a big kick out of that. I love being with my dad but I miss home terribly. I miss my momma and monsterpoo and my art supplies. And I hate chuck. I'm thinking about stencilling a deadhead and spray painting all kinds of shit on a canvas for my dad's 15th anniversary. I'm still brain storming and I have pleanty of time before Lydia and I come to fresno in august.
Day twenty nine:
Being around chuck and feeling so angry and annoyed is making my bipolar act up. My anxiety is creeping up on me and I'm clawing at my arms. Chuck is bad for my health. I need to go back to being optimistic. It'll help a lot.
Day thirty:
I get to go home this week. SO excited. A couple more days with chuck.. Not so excited. We watched superstar and the sopranos til almost 5am. Shit was chill.
Day thirty one:
I go home friday. I told mom it was for sure about me coming home this week and she was so happy haha she said Monster didn't attack her feet the whole time I was gone and once she told him I was coming home he attacked her hahaha my baby was excited. Everything seems to be going awesome. I'm happy. Things with new boy seem legit so far. I've been waiting to be happy for a long time. I hope it stays.
Day thirty two:
I'm on a tarded rollar coaster full of ups and downs and twists and turns. It's making me sick.
Day thirty three:
Things are going so good now. Everything is settled and awesome. I'm so happy. I go home friday. New boy and I are doing supaaaa good. Things are totally looking up.
Day thirty four:
All in all this was a good trip. I'll prolly be back way more often. I'm so excited to go home.
