Mini Suicide (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} omgzimabroxxx) wrote,@ 2009-11-06 08:03:00 |
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| Current mood: |  awake |
September was stupid haha I thought someone was different and I was clearly wrong. It sucks because every time someone shitty comes along, it makes you lose faith in people. But whatever I guess. I think I try too hard to find the good in people. I got over things quicker than I expected but I'm personally not complaining. It just means I wasn't that into it if it didn't phase me.
Last month wasn't so bad. I started to fix myself & actually started to feel better from all the events of the year. I started painting like a mad woman haha but it helped a lot. I started planning out my future & it seems super doable. It's going to take a lot of work but it'll be worth it.
This month started off odd but amusing to say the least haha I put my pride aside & did something I didn't expect to do. I missed you terribly even though I'd never admit it. It was just really awesome to talk again & have it be good & mellow & not like fuck you die haha I prolly shouldn't expect much or anything but it just felt good. I wouldn't be apposed to this continuing. I guess it is what it is & if it's supposed to work/happen then it will.
I'm starting to feel like myself again. But in a good way. I felt like I lost myself. I'm almost back & I'm happy about it.
