urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:omgzimabroxxx Mini Suicide Mini Suicide 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:omgzimabroxxx:309295 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z <center>This past month has been disgustingly emotional. I need a break from all of this. You can only hear how shitty your dad is so many times. Yes, he's obviously not the greatest dude out there but he is my father. Hearing all this fucked up shit about him just sucks. He was a temporary thing in her life. She doesn't realize that talking so much shit about him causes our issues to resurface. We've made too much progress for everything to go to shit. Whether I like it or not, he's in my life. Forever. But she doesn't care. She keeps inflicting more pain upon herself and dragging me along for the ride. I should have never been brought into this. I should have never been told the gory details.<br /><br />Hung out with Ness the other day. Went to a kick back at Rosa's the other night. Went to a bar with Rosa and Brenda. Got hit on by high school gang bangers. Been working on a lot of canvases. Getting paid to do a series. Everything that isn't family related isn't too shabby.<br /><br />For the first time in years...<br />I feel genuinely happy. He makes me excited for the future. I don't have an escape plan. That hasn't happened in so long. He knows about a part of my life that very few know about and he stuck around. He didn't runaway screaming. For the first time in years my heart isn't hurting for my life ruiner. I'm happy. And it's amazing. He's amazing. This whole deal is amazing. I hope he doesn't go away any time soon. Or ever.</center>